by Rhiannon

This meditation is designed to help you re-discover forgotten memories, aspects of yourself, and feelings. In magick, a vital rule is "know yourself". Those parts of you that you deny or repress are those things most likely to cause you serious problems in deep magickal working. Through exercises like this and the balance sheet, as well as openness with yourself, you develop a better understanding of yourself, and therefore of your potentials. Frequently we close off things because we are unable to handle them at that time, but, as time goes by, we gain strength, not only to face them, but to transform them into sources of strength and power. In this exercise, you can close off anything you do not wish to deal with now, and to open only those doors you choose. The one rule is, you never lock a door again, although you may close it.

Ground and center. Spend a few moments noticing any changes, and feeling the energy of Earth and Sky flowing strongly around you, forming a protective glow of light about you...       You notice an archway before you, leading to a hallway. As you stand in the arch, you notice the hallway is lined with doors, leading far back. Some doors are open, some partway open, some firmly closed, and, perhaps some locked. You realize you have in your hand a key that will open any of the doors you wish, but that you cannot lock them again with it. Each door opens onto an experience or a part of yourself. You are the only one who can open or close any of the doors you wish.       You feel drawn toward one of the doors and look inside. Become aware of what is within and the feelings it evokes... If you wish, you may go within and explore, or if you'd rather, just observe, or close the door again...       Take your time and explore as many of the doors as you wish. When you are through, return to your center, as usual, before returning to the physical, realizing you can return to explore more at any time, just by moving through the archway. But for now, take your time and explore...